I’ve been more reflective this week for some reason, maybe it’s because I am almost half way. I was so anxious in that first trimester for a variety of reasons. I had a lot of bleeding at the start of my pregnancy and when I went for my dating scan, I had fully prepared myself to be told there was no heartbeat. Instead finding out there was in fact 2 heart beats was a complete shock.
The stats aren’t exactly encouraging either, there was a 1 in 20 chance that one twin wouldn’t make it to 12 weeks, not to mention of all the other complications that come with a twin pregnancy. It was a stressful time, the news of twins, figuring out the financials, constantly thinking about miscarriage and all the things that could go wrong. The weeks moved so slowly, but now, time is flying by and instead of worrying about all the bad things, I am focusing on all the blessings.
I’ve sorted through Emmy’s baby clothes and we just paid off our layby for the majority of the big tickets items we needed. It still seems so surreal, but in so many ways I feel less overwhelmed and more in control. I am sure this will ebb and flow throughout my pregnancy; but week 17 – you’ve been a good one.